Day 17 - Your Favorite Memory

I'm going to do two, one with friends and one with just Cody.


Cody - I have ton's of favorite memories with him. Some that he would probably rather me not describe on here and some obvious one's, like our birthdays, holidays and anniversaries. Both valentines days were amazing, so was our 6 month and 1 year. My recent birthday was even better. I think my favorite recent memory though is when we laid a cover down outside at night and enjoyed the stars. We put on his Ipod so we could listen to some music and then laid down and snuggled while looking at the stars. We talked a lot about randoms things and I think at one point I even dozed off. It was so peaceful and amazing, even if it wasn't some big moment in our relationship I loved it.


Friends - There isn't really one great memory, there's a bunch of random ones that I love. The time I spent the night with Jesse and Cody was great, they sung "If Your Into It" to me and we made a bonfire outside then went in and watched some Spirited Away. Going to see Nine Inch Nails with both of them is also a great memory. I fell asleep on the way home and remember when Jesse grabbed both Cody and me when they played Hurt. The few nights I spent with Tarah were also extremely fun. Especially the one when we hid TMNT eggs, then tried to hunt them but forget where we hid them,ha. Or when we had that battle on her laptop with random toys. Then there's the night I spent with Brad which was filled with lots of talking, pool and movies. Or the day Clarice and me had a girls day and we went around trying on clothes and taking pictures. The earlier shows when people actually went were amazing. Plus any of the times when I went bowling with friends, bowling always proved to be fun. :)

Day 16 - Your first kiss

Random fact: This picture has 64 views on Myspace and that's a bit weird.
My first kiss was on January 16th, 2009. I was a late bloomer in this whole relations thing

I remember that right away everyone felt the need to ask me if we had made out yet or if he had kissed me yet and would not shut up about it. They made it sound like there was something wrong with me because he didn't do it right away. Becca even asked me if I was sure that he liked me. Seriously.

Anyways, the first few weeks he would give me little pecks on my cheek and forehead which is extremely cute, but no full on kisses happened until about three weeks after we had started dating.

I remember he came over and we had decided to just watch Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy and snuggle. I had never seen the movie and it's one of his favorite book series, so I do believe that's why he wanted to watch it. About 1/3 of the way through Jesse called, I really can't remember why now, but he talked to me and then talked to Cody for awhile and a little bit after that phone call Cody kissed me. Well he attempted to, at first try he got my chin instead of my lips. Second try he got it right though :)

At first it was just a peck, then went on to full on making out,ha. We caught up fast. I remember he told me it was my fault because I was too cute and he told me he would still love me if I looked like Dobby.

Then for the next few months we were cursed with the inability to sit through a full movie,ha. :)

Birthday present!

So, when I posted about my birthday I said I would share pictures of the gift that Cody got me. It's a journal in which he decorated some pages for me and it's extremely cute :)

Since I really enjoy it, everyone else gets to see it. These pictures in no way represent how awesome it actually looks, I had to use my old camera and it's was pretty hard to get a picture that wasn't blurry.

Day 15 - Your Dreams

I don't have a lot of career related goals or dream, I do know things I want to accomplish, but I'm not really concerned about money, I just want to be happy.

I would LOVE to get at least one picture published in any sort of magazine. I don't think I'll ever be able to make a living off of photography because it's such a competitive field, but I do want to get something published, at least one thing.

I want to be able to get a job that I like, I don't have to love it but I at least don't want to hate it. I don't want to be miserable in my job like everyone else seems to be, though I'm sure there's good reason to be. You spend a good percentage of your life just working so I don't want to waste my time hating it. I will find something to like once I get a job, even if it's just the paycheck part of it :)

I want to work somewhere where I can either help people, help animals or work with cameras. At the moment I'm considering child care, like working at a day care or a preschool, but I have no idea. I'm also considering being a librarian but I believe there's a lot of college involved with that career so I'm not sure. Social work,, working in a museum or a photojournalist are other choices, but I seriously have no idea. I'm not going to stress about it though because constantly worrying isn't going to help anything. I really just want to work at a zoo, but there isn't any in Somerset :(

Those are my work related goals at the moment, I really don't think about it too much other than hoping that I'll be able to do something that I actually like.

There are a few life goals/dreams I have though.

I want to move out with Cody in about a year or two, we just need to get jobs and save up money first. I want to decorate our apartment together and just enjoy living with him. I really don't want to be set back on this because I don't want to be living in my mom's house when I'm 23. I want to move out soon and be able to live on my own, so most of my paychecks will be going in the bank.

I want to eventually get married. I don't know exactly when but I know to whom ;). I was thinking about waiting til after college, but I'm not sure yet. That seems like it would take forever since I'm also going for my Bachelors. Either way, I just really want to get married. Just a piece of paper or not, I like the idea of a wedding and marriage.

Overall, I just really want to be able to stay with Cody. I'm sure I'm horrible to put up with, but I hope he will be able to put up with me because I really want this relationship to work. I want to prove others wrong that think first loves never last or that I'm to young to be committed. I could never see myself with anyone else and I don't want to give him any reason to break up with me. I want to be able to work through our problems and be able to grow and change together.

I also want to lose all the weight I want to. Get over all my insecurities. Buy a really expensive, nice camera. Own a corgi and see The White Stripes in concert. Learn how to argue more fairly and how to not take everything so personally. Keep in touch with some of my high school friends and to stop worrying so much and travel a lot.

That's all I can think of at the moment. I think some of the last ones were more goals than dreams, but oh well. At first I thought it meant like sleep dreams so I was just going to describe zombies and end of the world dreams, but you got this instead.

Day 14 - What I Wore Today

I had to get my textbooks today so I wore my Justice League shirt which has a lot of superheros on it and my dark blue jeans from Maurices.

I drove around with my dad and Cody forever looking for a car that was extremely cheap, but still didn't have a ton of miles on it. I think I settled on a gold Mazda that kind of looks like something my grandma would drive, but it's cheap and has air! They just have to go a bit lower on the price and I'll be able to get it.

When we got home, I changed from pants to those orange Operation pajama pants that Cody's dad gave me and that was the extent of my wardrobe for the day. Interesting stuff.

This did remind me though that I kind of want a maxi dress at Kmart. If only I had some extra money :(

Day 13- This week

(That's Supernatural!)

I'm not sure I can remember what I did all week, but I'll try.

Monday - I really think we just spent a lot time laying around. For most of the week, Cody didn't have much gas so it was either my house or his. Usually my house. I'm sure we sat around, listened to music, snuggled and maybe watched a few Ouran High school Host Club episodes.

Tuesday - We went to the movies with Brad to see Dinner for Schmucks, which was a pretty good movie, the best part was Zach Galifianakis laugh though. It was fun and we finally got see Brad again, but I wish people would want to do something other than go to the movies. You really can't talk when you go to movies, so to me it'd be a lot easier to catch up if you go to the park or on a trail or something! I can't remember what we did when we got home, but it probably wasn't that interesting.

Wednesday - I drove us up to the Pulaski County Library and checked out two books, Tuesdays with Morrie and A Million Little Pieces. I read One More Day by Mitch Albom and thought it was pretty good. We also drove down to the Burnside Library to return another book. Other than that, I don't really remember doing anything other than laying around the house.

Thursday - I'm not really sure what I did Thursday. I do know Cody came over and that my teeth started hurting, so I probably took some drugs went to bed early.

Friday - We woke up around 6 am and my mom drove both of us over to my dad's so we could sit around and wait til he needed to go to Louisville. I watched Angel, Charmed and Supernatural, Cody slept. My dad finally got up at 11 and around 12 we left. I drove most of the way, but my teeth started hurting so Cody took over when we were about an hour or so from the doctors office. We got stuck in traffic, then finally got there and the doctor my dad was supposed to see wasn't even there, so he didn't find out much. On the way out of Louisville we managed to get lost and I almost hit a lady crossing the street because Cody waited til the last minute to tell me to turn. I drove most of the way until my teeth started hurting again. We stopped to get Orajel (which was $9 by the way, that's crazy) and I thought I was good, but they started hurting again, so I pulled over and Cody drove. I cried some about teeth, got grumpy and didn't get home til around 9. I went to sleep right away.

Saturday - Cody felt like staying in so for most of the day I slept. Not because he decided to stay in,but because I felt horrible. I think I ended up swallowing a lot of Orajel so my stomach hurt, my teeth were making my jaw hurt and giving me headaches and I couldn't eat or drink anything without my teeth deciding to hurt. I slept til about 8 pm, woke up and called Cody who decided to come over because he wasn't doing anything but playing Street Fighter and he said I sounded sad so he wanted to make me feel better. I don't remember doing much when he came over, I'm sure we just laid around a lot because my jaw felt better if I was laying on a pillow.

Sunday - Cody came over earlier than usual and we went over his house. My teeth decided to hurt again so he was trying to find me some Aleve and ended up giving me something called BC which was horrible and made me want to vomit. I laid down for a bit at his house, then we went to meet dad to get the $20 he gives me every payday. Which I used most of it to by hair dye because I thought it would make me feel better. We got home and I slept some more because of the pain and then I dyed my hair which came out darker than I meant for it too, but everyone seems to like it. Cody stayed downstairs when I was dying it and when I walked in the room he said "Awh you look pretty". It is now a brownish color, but not extremely dark and still has darker blonde mixed in with it. I don't know what color you would call that!

Day 12 - What's in your bag

So, I don't usually carry a bag because I don't like carrying things and purses get on my nerves. I do carry a wallet most of the time that I usually end up making Cody hold, so I'll just post whats in that.

In the pockets there's my drivers license, my debit card and a business card for the manager at Walgreen's that I'm actually going to throw away now since I don't need it.

In the middle for some reason I still have Cody's USB flash drive, a receipt from Wal-mart for yarn, a movie ticket for Dinner for Schmucks and my baby blockers :).

In the zipper part there's a key chain sized Speedy Rewards card that is actually Cody's, one quarter from Panama that I somehow happened upon and decided to keep, one squished penny from Diamond Cavern, an assortment of fortunes that say - "You have a quiet and unobtrusive nature", "You will have a pleasant trip", "Strong and bitter words indicate a weak cause", "You have the ability to nurture and work creatively with others" and "You have an iron will, which helps you succeed in everything" - and $1.83 in change.

Day 11 - Your Siblings

I have to catch up with this challenge because my wisdom teeth have been a pain in the ass for the last few days and I've been sleeping a lot thanks to being drugged up.

I have four siblings in all I believe, one step sister, one brother and two step adopted siblings that my dad adopted with his last wife before they divorced. I hardly ever see the last two because both are in jail I do believe, either in jail or rehab so there's not a lot to describe there. I'll just talk about the two I see a lot.


Stephanie Hutchinson is my step sister and for the most part we got a long pretty well. She's extremely smart and just recently got her Masters degree in nursing. She likes pretty much any song on the radio and every time I go to Ohio with her she'll turn the radio up obnoxiously loud and sing every song. She has a sense of humor which is rare in my family. And doesn't seem to care as much about me getting a job as everyone else does. she has two kids, JJ and Zachary, who are extremely adorable. I don't really know a lot about her since I only see her at family events now, but I know she used to really like Survivor and Greys Anatomy. She also gave me a huge stuffed bunny that I still have before she moved out.


and then my brother is Charles Canada. We also get along rather well on the days that he's not being a complete jerk. He enjoys lots of rock music and doesn't really enjoy anything I like. He goes to Devry which is an online college, so he spends most of his days in the house with his girlfriend Melissa. He plays a crap ton of video games and because of him we have had almost all of the gaming systems. He usually doesn't get mad at anyone but me and dad which I'm not sure why, I promise I'm not that annoying. He has bipolar disorder and I went through a lot of crap until they finally got him on some medicine that worked. He enjoys watching sports and sometimes will play basketball outside. He randomly buys me stuff sometimes for no reason at all. He bought me Wii Fit and that Justice League shirt I have. He seems pretty happy now to be out of school and I do believe he has found the person he wants to be with, so all is good at the moment.

Day 10 - What I Wore Today

This is not going to be interesting at all.

I stayed in my pajamas all day because Cody and I weren't going anywhere and I'm lazy. So, I had on my pink Hello Kitty shirt, which has her face on it and little pink roses and black dots all over it. For pants, I had on the Operation pajama pants that Codys dad gave me. Their orange and have the little Operation guy plastered all over them. They also happen to be extremely comfortable.

That's all I wore! :)

Also!

I was asking Cody today where we should go for our honeymoon. Not that it's going to happen anytime soon at all or that we really need to plan it out, but we're crazy ass poor so an idea would be good so we can start saving. At first he said we should just go somewhere in the states since I'm afraid of planes, but then randomly he said "We could go to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter"!

Fuck Yeah! That means after the wedding, I could go tour Hogwarts, see moving portraits, visit the stores in Diagon Alley and go on rides! This is extremely nerdy, but I got so excited.

Cody, this means that you can not change your mind at all. You can't even change your mind about being with me because it wouldn't be as fun going without you =p

Day 9 - Your beliefs

(This was taken in church!)

I don't know, I'm at the point where I'm not sure what I believe.

I'm christian and believe in God, but most of my beliefs don't necessarily match up with what most other Christians believe.

I believe that gay marriage should be legal and am pro-choice. I don't believe in waiting til marriage for sex. I think it should be ok as long as your truly in love and plan on staying committed to each other. I don't believe in shoving my beliefs on others, talking down other religions or judging others. I don't even like that a different religion may be wrong and that supposedly means everyone who follows it will burn in hell. Ha I used to hope that there was different heavens for the different religions. I do believe in separation of church and state. I don't know, I believe in a loving God that doesn't send someone to hell just because they love someone of the same gender. I don't believe I'm going to have to pay for my sins because I like Harry Potter. I enjoy reading Harry Potter not practicing magic. I don't believe in burning books or censorship. And most of the time I don't even like church or like to listen to people preach about death and burning in hell if I don't do everything right.

I would rather hear about all the good things God has done, about how believing in him can bring faith, love and compassion into my life. How having faith has helped others. I would rather hear about a positive loving God, than a God that flooded Katrina because of all of their "sins". I grew up believing in an all loving God and that's the God I have faith in.

I also really hope that animals have souls and that they go to heaven too, because I want to see my dog Molly again :(

My beliefs are a bit idealistic I know! But I like being optimistic about this.

Day 8 - One moment

It took me forever to decide on what to write for this. I've had a lot of "moments" but not many were that out of the ordinary or interesting, so I decided to write about the Against Me! concert which is a somewhat unique experience.

So, I planned ahead and bought the tickets to surprise Cody since Against Me! happens to be his favorite band. I bought them with money I was supposed to be saving, but oh well it was worth it. I wasn't sure whether I wanted to wait until the tickets came in to tell him or if I was just going to go ahead and tell him, the latter one because I'm horrible with surprises. I called him expecting him to be all excited, but all I got was "Really? Yes!" ha.

Codys parents decided he could drive the van and we skipped Bio lab on April 21st to drive up to Louisville to see them. Cody hardly ever talks ever, so the way up there was exciting but there was more of me talking and listening to music than him talking. We got lost a few times and almost got hit before we figured out where Headliners music hall was. We get lost everywhere we go, so this was not new. We were an hour early so we stood around for a bit, then stood in a line for longer. When we got in the bar, I grabbed a place in the front and told Cody that we weren't moving from there because I wanted him to be up front when Against Me! played.

Three bands played before Against Me! and the first one definitely wasn't good, the other two were really good though. During Dead to Me's performance the singer cut his hand on his guitar strings but kept playing until their set was done. There was blood all over his guitar and it looked extremely painful which means he's a tough man.

Then Against Me! finally came out and Cody FINALLY got excited,ha. It was cute. He yelled for all of them and knew every lyric to every song. I knew some of them, but haven't listened to Against Me! enough to know all of them. They did play Don't Lose Touch, which was amazing and the drummer looked at me and sung with me while they were playing. I took tons of pictures because that's what I do and Cody sung until his voice hurt. We were in the first row so we were up close to them since the venue was really small. Tom Gabel hardly talked at all which was a lot different from the Nine Inch Nails concert and they powered through all of the songs, but it was really good. Overall, the concert was really fun and definitely worth skipping Bio lab for. Against Me! played really well and seemed to enjoy the crowd.So fun times!

On the way home we got lost twice, went the wrong way and got some hot dogs and drinks. Cody didn't talk any at all on the way home either which was irritating because I was trying to get a conversation going so he wouldn't get too tired while driving because we had been up since 8 am. A conversation never really happened though so I just got frustrated and slept some,ha. We came away with two records, two t-shirts, and good memories :)

Day 7- Your Best Friend

(Mainly he's really gay.)

Overall there's a few people I would consider my best friends, they would be Cody, Jesse, Tarah, Brad and Clarice. All of them are pretty awesome on their own, but I can't write about each of them because this entry would be crazy long and for the most part I don't get to talk to any of them much anymore except Cody though I still consider all of them really good friends.

So this post will be about Cody. I've talked about him tons so I'm going to try to stick to things most probably don't know about him.

He has one younger brother, an older sister, and an older step brother who he likes to talk to about Street Fighter. He for some reason thinks his stomach is big and constantly says he's fat. He does everything his parents ask and has never argued with them (crazy stuff). He's was in almost every Christmas play at his church. He for some reason doesn't like Lily Allen and I can't understand why he enjoys Charlotte Gainsbourg. Anyone could do what she does Cody! Beck should of just chose Feist. He is really into anarchy and spends most of his time on the internet watching videos or reading articles about it. When he's not doing that, he's usually looking at something about Pokemon or Street Fighter. He played Pokemon for about 400 hours one summer. He also spent another summer just watching Naruto. He was never really interested in talking to girls and I'm the only girl he ever talked to a lot. That is if you exclude Jesse and Scott :). I'm the only person he's ever liked. He hardly ever gets excited, ever. When I told him we were going to see Against Me, he just said "Really!? Yes." That was it. He needs an insane amount of sleep, seriously. I know we joked about him napping, but he could sleep all night and still need to nap for a while during the day. He's hardly ever hyper at all, I'm usually the exact opposite. He thinks I'm funny, but also tells me that I have the sense of humor of a 10 year old boy. He is extremely funny and extremely ticklish. He really wants to buy me a fancy camera. He is obsessed with Street Fighter and usually plays for a few hours every night, then gets on the internet and looks up more stuff about it. He has memorized how many seconds there is for each frame. Nerd.

He really had no idea how to talk to girls. He thought calling a girl chubby was a compliment. He told me a friend probably liked me because they might of thought I was easy,ha. He is obviously horrible at expressing what he means sometimes. He doesn't like talking about himself and never really has to anyone else. During VBS he looked up at me and seriously asked if I ever realized that supper and super were spelled the same. He really thought they were spelled the same, I had to explain to them that they weren't. He never realized he was spelling doesn't wrong. He never really thought he would ever date anyone or get close to a girl. I enjoy proving him wrong :). He too hates double standards, so I picked a winner. He draws, paints and writes really well.We disagree about the gayness of Aquaman. He doesn't like the taste of oatmeal for some reason. He thinks Matt Damon and Joseph Gordon Levitt are handsome men. He talks about half as much as I do, on the way to Glasgow the most he said was a few sentences. He was afraid of computers when he was little. He likes cleaning and will just randomly get up sometimes and pick up stuff around my room. He's short tempered, it probably doesn't seem that way, but trust me he is. He is really smart and knows way more about most things than I do, except for math I've got that on him.He thinks I'm way too paranoid about most things, but it's always good to be prepared! He is also the best boyfriend I could ever ask for. :)

I could write tons more, but I'll stop before it gets too long.

Day 6 - Your day

(This happened today!)

So, I woke up at 8 am for whatever reason and spent way too much time on the internet. I got on myspace and looked at old whole photos which got me all nostalgic like and actually made me feel like trying to talk to some people again. This worked! I texted Dakota and am now going to the movies with Brad. Plus sometime I'm doing something with Clarice, Dillon and Scott and the movies with you all :) actual social times might be happening.

I sat around for awhile until Cody came over at 3 pm and then we sat around a bit more. I think after a little bit we went to his house, talked to his parents and Nicky, went to Wal-mart to get some wonderful Birthday Cake ice cream and then came back to my house. That ice cream is the best ever. We had planned to have a movie marathon with zombies, but that didn't work out because I had a really bad headache and he was tired. So after I ate we napped for a while then got up and drove up to my dads to get some money.

When we got back we didn't really do much, we listened to music, snuggled and replied to things, then laid around some more. Today was kind of boring, but it was still a really nice lazy day and he stayed a little past 3 am so it was good :)

I checked my financial aid after he left and I am extremely excited. If I get as much back as I think I am, I might be able to buy me a really cheap used car and get insurance! Hopefully I'll get that job at RGIS when I go for the interview so that should help get it. Yessss :)

Wiseguys or a long ass post rambling about past shows.

I still have to do day five and six so there's going to be a lot of blog post today. So, I read Tarah's entry about shows and Wiseguys and was just going to comment, but my comment was starting to get really long so here's a post.

I went to the show last night which was free so that's a plus because I never really have enough money to pay for both Cody and me. I would of loved to of went to every show and kept the music scene going by just being there and giving $10, but I couldn't afford it and at times didn't want to just listen to metal. Not that there wasn't good bands, there is, but not as many as there used to be. I think one time a few of us complained that it's always the same bands (this was like two years ago) but now I wish there was more of the same bands along with some of the newer bands, because I don't really like many of the newer bands. I don't hate them but after a while I get tired of just listening to growling and screaming, but at least the instruments are always good.

I went to my first show when I was in 8th grade, I saw The Fallen playing a Halloween show at Ferguson school. I didn't go to another one until 10th grade, but after that I went to almost every show. I'm pretty sure I went to almost every Colour Out of Space show, I saw the Fallen play almost every time, same with AKB and Witness the Reckoning. I even went to the acoustic We are Pompeii show. I've been to almost every venue they've opened recently and all the closing shows. I started going less around 12th grade because everyone else did too. There usually wasn't anyone else to talk to there except for a bunch of 13 year olds that smoke pot which is just the group I don't want to talk to. I mean I had Cody and we would go to shows alone sometimes and just talk to each other and sometimes we'd see a few people like Tarah, Jesse and Billy, but for the last year or so there was hardly anyone there. Not that the music wasn't important too, it was. But Colour Out of Space quit, so did AKB and the Fallen. Messes of Men still played so I went for them sometimes and I believe Witness the Reckoning did too, so that was another reason to go to shows. The Corsairs are good and so was the Punk Rock Prom, but other than those bands there was just new random bands that had been formed. I listened to some of them and none of them were horrible, but it just wasn't the same. There wasn't as many bands that we knew playing and there really was no one going that we knew.

I don't think just one person is to blame. There should of been more genres, I mean we had like a billion metal bands, overall like 3 punk bands, whatever Messes of Men is and then the Colour Out of Space. I can enjoy metal when it's Witness the Reckoning or a few other bands, but not when every band is metal. We should of kept going, everyone of us, because maybe then they could of brought more bands in from out of state, maybe more bands would of kept playing and maybe there still would be that community feeling. I don't really see how the bands are at blame other than they stopped playing, those few bands were mainly the reason most people came. The Colour Out of Space had a good following, so did The Fallen and AKB. But you can't really blame them if no one was coming out or maybe they just had too much going on to stay in a band.

And while some of the bands may be blaming some, I doubt many of them are really putting all the blame on us or holding any grudges. At the last show, every band said thank you to those who came out for the shows, yeah they did mention that we should of came more but they still seemed appreciative of those who came out. Brandon said he liked all of us who came out for other shows, Mark said thanks to everyone and there was a moment of mass hugs, Nathan thanked everyone too for keeping it open this long and the singer of Witness the Reckoning (I seriously don't know his name :( ) thanked everyone for coming too. So while they might blame some, they all really did seem appreciative of those who had been to past shows and that Wiseguys had been able to stay open as long as it did

I mean think of every other venue, everyone went to Brandywine, but that didn't last very long either and then another one came along. So while that might of been the last show at Wiseguys, I'm sure there will be more and we should all go if we want better bands and invite the people who used to go so we don't have to talk to 13 year olds.

Anyways, I am glad they worked to keep Wiseguys open as long as they could and that everyone was so nice. I do wish we would of went to the Friday show now because I doubt we'll get another chance to see The Fallen and I'm sure there was more people I actually talked to there, but yesterdays show was good too.If I wasn't so poor maybe I could of went to more, but you try not having a job and paying for your boyfriend along with your entry for every show,ha.

(Also, the whole time I've been going only one band covered a White Stripes song and it wasn't even a good band. It was some random country rock band. Plus there wasn't enough Clash covers at all. Though Cody did enjoy all the Against Me! covers) :)