Day 15 - Your Dreams

I don't have a lot of career related goals or dream, I do know things I want to accomplish, but I'm not really concerned about money, I just want to be happy.

I would LOVE to get at least one picture published in any sort of magazine. I don't think I'll ever be able to make a living off of photography because it's such a competitive field, but I do want to get something published, at least one thing.

I want to be able to get a job that I like, I don't have to love it but I at least don't want to hate it. I don't want to be miserable in my job like everyone else seems to be, though I'm sure there's good reason to be. You spend a good percentage of your life just working so I don't want to waste my time hating it. I will find something to like once I get a job, even if it's just the paycheck part of it :)

I want to work somewhere where I can either help people, help animals or work with cameras. At the moment I'm considering child care, like working at a day care or a preschool, but I have no idea. I'm also considering being a librarian but I believe there's a lot of college involved with that career so I'm not sure. Social work,, working in a museum or a photojournalist are other choices, but I seriously have no idea. I'm not going to stress about it though because constantly worrying isn't going to help anything. I really just want to work at a zoo, but there isn't any in Somerset :(

Those are my work related goals at the moment, I really don't think about it too much other than hoping that I'll be able to do something that I actually like.

There are a few life goals/dreams I have though.

I want to move out with Cody in about a year or two, we just need to get jobs and save up money first. I want to decorate our apartment together and just enjoy living with him. I really don't want to be set back on this because I don't want to be living in my mom's house when I'm 23. I want to move out soon and be able to live on my own, so most of my paychecks will be going in the bank.

I want to eventually get married. I don't know exactly when but I know to whom ;). I was thinking about waiting til after college, but I'm not sure yet. That seems like it would take forever since I'm also going for my Bachelors. Either way, I just really want to get married. Just a piece of paper or not, I like the idea of a wedding and marriage.

Overall, I just really want to be able to stay with Cody. I'm sure I'm horrible to put up with, but I hope he will be able to put up with me because I really want this relationship to work. I want to prove others wrong that think first loves never last or that I'm to young to be committed. I could never see myself with anyone else and I don't want to give him any reason to break up with me. I want to be able to work through our problems and be able to grow and change together.

I also want to lose all the weight I want to. Get over all my insecurities. Buy a really expensive, nice camera. Own a corgi and see The White Stripes in concert. Learn how to argue more fairly and how to not take everything so personally. Keep in touch with some of my high school friends and to stop worrying so much and travel a lot.

That's all I can think of at the moment. I think some of the last ones were more goals than dreams, but oh well. At first I thought it meant like sleep dreams so I was just going to describe zombies and end of the world dreams, but you got this instead.